She's In Denial.

31 December 2007

I studied today!!

Went out to library to return book then off to loiter around Tampines, trying to find a place to study. But i failed.

Luckily Matthias msg me and suggest that i go SengKang to find him. Haha. So end up, I went over to study while he and his friends play bball.

BUT, i ended up watching the people play instead of studying. Hahaha.

Went to Pasir Ris Park with Matt to chill after that. Long time din't go le la. Nice. I love it. Hah. Relaxing.

Then he sent me home.

Im not that afraid of bike already.

So here I am, doing my assignment.

JAY CHOU!!

Die already la. My music theory is gone case. =(

Left`alone
12/31/2007 02:39:00 AM™

30 December 2007

Serious speaking, I don't really have any new year resolution.

1. GPA of at least 3?

2. Save at least 1.5k in my account. LOL.

3. Can't think of any already.

Since my birthday is so near, I shall make mine for my birthday.

woooooo.

Birthday chalet, 9 to 11 Feb 08.

Aloha Changi.

Anyone wanna come?

Left`alone
12/30/2007 12:26:00 PM™

灰白色的圣诞；血红色的伤；微禄色的世界；不存在的他。

I am hungry still.

Left`alone
12/30/2007 01:26:00 AM™

29 December 2007

Went to watch National Treasure. Nice.

Hungry hungry.

I want MCD Fries!

Left`alone
12/29/2007 11:58:00 PM™

Im freaking pissed this morning.

You tell me la. If nobody's picking up your call, do you keep on calling and even call that person's house number just to get that person to answer you?

Fuck up right? Im freaking asleep and you keep calling.

IT'S FUCKING RUDE LAR.

You hope to get your stuff back today DOESN'T mean that I have to GO ALONG WITH YOU.

okay?

It's my phone and I have the choice of picking up or not.

Childish fucking asshole.

Call my house somemore. What are you trying to do hur?

You think the world revolve around you that whoever you call, that person must pick up?

Im definitely sure that I've made the right choice.

Hah.

I AM HAPPY.

Left`alone
12/29/2007 12:05:00 PM™

Packing your stuff makes me feel weird.

Looking at the card I've made for you but you never treasure.

And the ring that I've never remove till that day.

But i've learnt not to cry over spilled milk.

In fact, I dint cry over it at all.

This just gotta show how determined I am.

Left`alone
12/29/2007 01:40:00 AM™

To think of it, i have been using this blog for like 2 years plus! Im afraid to lose it. Cuz i haven't validate my email and somehow i lost that email account. =X Just hope that blogger is kind enough not to chase me out of this.

You tell me, what is love??

What will you do for the sake of love?

For the guy i love, Im willing to do anything. From waiting for him for numerous hours, to spending lotsa money just to get the gift he desire for special occasion, and that ended me up being bankrupt. I sense love, when i teared like nobody's business and start to get breathless. To the extent that I think i gonna die from lack of oxygen.

Have you experience that before?

'Love' is a harsh word, that you can never say unless you are really certain that she/he's the one for you.

Really.

Left`alone
12/29/2007 12:44:00 AM™

28 December 2007

Picture by Deviantart.com

Sing me a song, with you on the piano,

With your eyes looking into mine,

with the romantic melody sounding with the chimes,

with lovers dancing to the rhymes,

with me; with my life.

Left`alone
12/28/2007 01:44:00 AM™

27 December 2007

Went to KBox with boon and Shiqin. Very long never sing le. Nicenice. But my sorethroat getting very very worse.

Met Matthias to pass him the money and he gave me a winter melon tea to soothe my sorethroat. Thanks ah.

I feel weird today. Am thinking whether I've made the right decision for now and that's really what I want. It really really gonna be hard on me. And things doesn't seem to be the same. I kinda miss the old things. But, no matter what it is, it will still change with time. Aw. People blame me for having them suspended. But they don't know the real reason behind it. End up im like the bad person here. =((

Sometimes I think that I've gotten my feet in deep shit that I can't get out of but it doesn't seem to be that bad at certain time.

I think what I need now is assurance.

Ya that is it.

Left`alone
12/27/2007 10:19:00 PM™

Today was okay.

Out with boon.

Alvin and the Chipmunks is damn freaking nice!

Theodore is cute. Just like my ham ham. Hah.

Went lunch/dinner at Sakae after that. Actually, I din't really eat a lot. Cuz of my sorethroat and yea, I ain't feeling that well. Talked about my chalet. Im freaking scared that nobody will turn up la. Anyway, I don't know who to ask too. =S

Then off to presents shopping. Damn funny la, buying present for Kevin. hah.

Went Starbucks to wrap the presents, then boon say he wanna pass the present to his ex. Walao, weird lor, ask me go along. lol.

By then it's around 10pm i guess.

After that, we went to mac to wait for Matthias to come. Shag. We left at around 12am. Waited for boon to take his bus then Matt send me home.

Omg. Too long din't take bike already. Haha. Not used to it. lol.

We chatted till around 1.45am and i went home.

All these while, Im sick! okay! sianed.

Reach home still must get nagged.

Super sian. But i ignored. =.=''

Anyway, my post is getting boring. hahahahha. Cuz im sick la. Cannot blame me.

Left`alone
12/27/2007 02:36:00 AM™

26 December 2007

My hamsters' photo!

The one in black is xiaoblackie and the one on the right is boyboy. =D

cute right! So lovely!

Taken on x'mas eve. heh.

Anyone misses me?? LOL.

Left`alone
12/26/2007 11:38:00 AM™

25 December 2007

Merry Christmas People!
-
Was out yesterday night at boat quay. Went to this WuBar with boon, zhi guan, yinzhi, matthias and his friends. Aiyo I tell you. Matthias' friends keep playing pool and sing, I keep playing the PhotoHunt game, and of cuz, we keep drinking. We had Martell and Chivas.
Then me and this friend of his, keep eating peanuts.
The amount of peanuts i ate yesterday night is definitely more than the peanuts i ate in my lifetime. LOL.
End up, the only sober people there is the peanut gang. HAAAAA.
Not bad leh. But i don't know how much i drank. Of cuz, compared to them is really very little already. But compared to my past drinking experience, it's not little. haha.
-
Yea man, I have no idea what to do now. By right, i should be studying for music theory. By left, i don't feel like. HOW LA? DIE LOR.

Do you miss me, people?? Haha.

Left`alone
12/25/2007 12:02:00 PM™

24 December 2007

My hamster damn cute la i tell you.

My boyboy and xiaoblackie squeeze together in a small hippo house and sleep leh. LOL. So cute. Wait till i find my cable, i shall upload the photo here.

Wahahahaha.

x'mas eve.

Left`alone
12/24/2007 04:23:00 PM™

I spent like 160bucks today!

Bought 2 top, a eyebrow powder set, 2 facial product, and a cardigan as xmas present for a friend of mine.

THE ABOVE COST ME 160BUCKS!

yay.

And i've received my first xmas present from Kevin. Hahahahahahaa.

yay yay yay. Looking forward to tml. A night out. Cool.

Left`alone
12/24/2007 12:03:00 AM™

21 December 2007

Tired. I am mentally and physically tired.

Ate Ajisen today with boon and sen rong. HAHAHA.

Ok. Im tired.

very.

Falling sick too. =(

Left`alone
12/21/2007 10:16:00 PM™

20 December 2007

FUCKING CB NEH NEH.

This fuck up uncle, don't know how to watch his way. wtf.

Bumped into me when Im taking a cup of hot milo.. And that fucking milo scalded me like fucking hell. But that NEHNEH CB din't even apologise.

FUCK UP RIGHT.

Now my hand is like, peeling, with blisters that fucking hurt when i move my fingers.

KNN LA.

Left`alone
12/20/2007 07:48:00 PM™

19 December 2007

I WENT JOGGING TODAY!

Left`alone
12/19/2007 08:38:00 PM™

18 December 2007

Remember my x'mas/bday wishlist??

It's about 25% done.

Those in bold are done.

1. a Gucci wallet. HAHAHA. But i can't find the design i want now. =((
2. Adidas / Nike Jacket. I think i need a new jacket. Mine ain't working fine. Yea.
3. M)phosis slippers. That particular design that i want.
4. My first pair of Levi's. Quite sad ah. I don't have Levi's. lol.
5. Wonderful birthday chalet. I gonna have aloha! [The 5% is here!]
6. Perfume. =)
7. Miniatured drumset. I think zp knows what im talking about. Heh.
8. Wonderful Christmas too. 17 more days to xmas.
9. I want, to be happy and certain of what i want.
10. It's a secret.

Left`alone
12/18/2007 09:58:00 AM™

16 December 2007

Today's a not bad day la. Hahahaha.

Went to market in the morning to shop for ingredients cuz Im making cookies at night.

Out to lunch at around afternoon. My favourite dimsum. =D Yummy lor!

Then back home to do my portfolio. Sian leh. My certs are very very limited. Haha.

COOKIES ARE SO YUMMYLICIOUS AND DELICIOUS.

Lovely day today.
-

I have craving for sushi and pasta!

Im still getting throat irritation.

Interview tml at 2pm.

^-^

Left`alone
12/16/2007 10:56:00 PM™

Walao sometimes i really don't know guy's taste.

This guy told me that this particular girl is hot. Im curious so I went to link here and there in friendster. And when I see that girl's photo, WALAO.. *smack head* lor!

Hah. She hot ah? She hot then so many girls out there is hot already.

=.=''

Guy's definition of 'hot girl' is really.. CMI.

Don't cha agree with me? lol.

Left`alone
12/16/2007 02:56:00 AM™

My throat is irritating! Had this throat irritation for quite a few days, but nothing seem to help. =(( Quite sad. It ain't a good feeling. And I had a tired day today.

Went to SL in the afternoon. Ok la. Not bad. Those aunties and uncles sang nicely. Kinda like that song.

Anyway, after that, me, kevin and kaiboon wanted to go Katong for karaoke. Peicheng, Yinzhi and zhiguan joined us. BUT, the karaoke there full. =(( No song to sing. That place is so damn cheap la.

We went to Parkway to chill at Coffee Bean. Chat quite a lot la. Aiya, you'll get wiser after chatting with them. lol.

Then off to this Hong Kong cafe for snacks before heading home.

Damn sian la. Bus 10 took so freaking long to arrive. =.=''

I had a nice day today. Gotta prepare my portfolio tml. Maybe i'll bake some cookies.

There's interview on Monday. =S

Good luck la. Need to study for MUST already. Gotta do my presentation on Jay Chou already.

I gonna watch that Alvin movie soon.

X'mas coming!

COOL LA.

Left`alone
12/16/2007 12:53:00 AM™

15 December 2007

Today ain't that bad afterall. Had a super bad morning but everything went fine in the evening.

I went to Hard Rock Cafe.

It's really a nice place to have your meals and chill; with all the music and stuff.

Ya, i enjoyed my evening.

But I reached home facing a fuck up situation.

Seriously I don't understand the need in kicking up a big fuss over MY breakup with MY EX-BOYFRIEND. It doesn't even concern him. Im talking about my dad here and I am seriously pissed with him man. It's not the first time im returning home late and tell me, is 1am late??

It is not! I can like go home at 5am, 6am! Like wtf. This ain't my first time going home late and ya, Im not like naive 15 yrs old girl. All because of that fucking breakup that he decided to PREACH, assuming that I am a bad girl and all those fuck. OH MY.

He says that people might think that I am a loose girl. Wtf right. I think he's the one thinking so. But it is as if I go round sleeping with guys. Sia la, my life not that happening la. At least not as happening as a prostitute.

His thoughts = his brain, which does not = to my brain and of cuz, my thoughts.

I just gonna wait till im at least 23 and ya, go get my own apartment and move out of all these shit.

Left`alone
12/15/2007 02:13:00 AM™

14 December 2007

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!

I so wanna say everything out here but I can't cuz it is a secret and nobody knows about it.

Nobody should know about it!

Im feeling so terrible now and can't say it out to anyone.

It sucks!

And i can't find anyone out there to be with me. What sia.

Today is suppose to be a lovely day too. But it all went like SHIT.

What the fuck.

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!

knnccb.

I GOT FUCKING NO MONEY WITH ME too. =((

FUCK LA.

Left`alone
12/14/2007 09:50:00 AM™

12 December 2007

Today's a lovely day too. Hahahahaha.
Like 2 more days to holiday, and I am looking forward to it!
=)

Left`alone
12/12/2007 07:57:00 PM™

11 December 2007

Don't know why, I feel happy today. =)

Today is a lovely day!

Gonna have Music theory in the morning tml, after which is MIDI test and I hope i can pass. Im kinda done with my MIDI assignment.

Thurs is a long long day. music theory and midi in the morning followed by video production in the noon.

Friday is the best. Perf class from 10 to 12 only!

Friday is someone's bday.

Left`alone
12/11/2007 09:36:00 PM™

10 December 2007

Something that I have to clarify. No matter who you are or maybe you're just one freaking stranger or what-so-ever..

I made this decision upon nobody. It's my own decision and no one was there to make me decide or it wasn't due to anyone elses.

Definitely not boon okay.

He can don't treat me as innocently as a friend or what but I treat him as a friend only. Stop pulling him into the picture. And ya, you can go around telling people that you are always the one giving in to me and all. But are you really sure about that? Giving in to me when you're at wrong is also giving in to me? Or is it just because im the one saying it and im the one who want it this way, and that you can't accept it cause of your ego that you decided to change the way it is? Someone told me that I have expectations that are too high. But i know, in this case, it is not me having high expectations.

Isn't it clear enough?

Like you getting back at me after I asked for a break?

See! Now who's the ugly one here.

All im looking forward to is the end of term and holiday to come asap for me to take a break out of all these shit.

I want a peaceful christmas please.

It is such a simple wish.

Left`alone
12/10/2007 09:35:00 PM™

A Nissin Cup Noodle that settles it all.

PA test sucks. Cuz we couldn't work as a team. Peformance was okay.

Actually, we're going for lunch. But im kinda pissed and ya.. irritated by someone and i decided to head straight home for cup noodle. Hah. Nah that someone is not in my group. =)

And here i am, enjoying my noodle and cooking half-boiled egg for my cousin at the same time. I feel blissed. LOL.

Mr LKB, im not like her. thankyou.

Left`alone
12/10/2007 01:50:00 PM™

Im super super tired. Slept at around 5am in the morning. Cuz i went out at around 3am and reach home at around 4am. And i woke up at around 10am to go to lib before meeting kevin and boon to go hongkah. Some books to read; wonderful.

BBQ was cancelled due to bad weather. But, we went to laoshi's house to slack and eat. Ok la. talked about many stuff. Played blackjack. And we won our cab fare back home.

Ok la. Im super super tired. Hah.

Gonna reach school by 8am tml for remt perf and PA test. Damn shag.

Hope tml will be fine man. Then i can go home earlier to sleep.

cool.

Left`alone
12/10/2007 12:10:00 AM™

08 December 2007

I know what I want now, and have already decided on it. For this time, I shall be strong. =) Really really really strong.

It's my fault, i know definitely it is. And i am really sorry about it.

But life is like this and we have to move on.

Just let me be. okay?

Left`alone
12/08/2007 10:20:00 PM™

My x'mas + bday wishlist. =DD

1. a Gucci wallet. HAHAHA. But i can't find the design i want now. =((

2. Adidas / Nike Jacket. I think i need a new jacket. Mine ain't working fine. Yea.

3. M)phosis slippers. That particular design that i want.

4. My first pair of Levi's. Quite sad ah. I don't have Levi's. lol.

5. Wonderful birthday chalet. I gonna have aloha!

6. Perfume. =)

7. Miniatured drumset. I think zp knows what im talking about. Heh.

8. Wonderful Christmas too. 17 more days to xmas.

9. I want, to be happy and certain of what i want.

10. It's a secret.

Well well, my wishes aint that bad hur.

Left`alone
12/08/2007 10:53:00 AM™

Will be going SL later. But I don't feel like moving my butt off the computer chair. HAH. Lazing around. Hope i have a nice day. You know, tired tired tired recently.

Are you reading my blog?

Left`alone
12/08/2007 10:42:00 AM™

07 December 2007

Performance was fine with me. I wasn't nervous, but i played badly. =(( It's okay! It's over now! Im tired..

I don't know what I wanna blog now. HOW LA.

facebook facebook facebook.

Left`alone
12/07/2007 10:19:00 PM™

06 December 2007

2nd blog post of the day.

How boring, the first was done in school with the mac.

Lancaster seems to be a nice place. But i doubt i can get in with my result. =((

Feel so uncomfortable. My throat is bad.

I think i need a break.

I WANNA WATCH FRED CLAUS. Anyone??

Left`alone
12/06/2007 07:17:00 PM™

Someone, told me that I have expectations that're too high. That's why Im feeling all the downs and stress.
But how true can that be? only if that person read my blog?
Oh well, maybe that's true. I don't knw. =S
Anyway, there's many thoughts that are running through my mind now.

I WANNA WATCH FRED CLAUS.

Left`alone
12/06/2007 10:50:00 AM™

04 December 2007

Im tired. =((

I slept on the train to and back from school. Can't help it. But I don't know why.

Felt stressed up about Friday's performance. SOLO!!

Im not really afraid of solo actually. Just that I'm worried that I can't do up to my standard.

Serious speaking, performance module makes me see personalities of certain people. And yea, Im sure that I detest it. Hah.

x'mas is really on its way here. How..

Totally no plan for x'mas. Maybe go club. But, for sure crowded. =/

So many things that I wanna say. But i don't know how to phrase it.

It's really a terrible feeling.

Left`alone
12/04/2007 09:33:00 PM™

03 December 2007

A penny for your thought.

Suddenly, there's this thing that ran through my mind. It's all about love. Hah. Sounds a lil ridiculous.

You know, love is nothing but a game of a lifetime. Once you're involved, there's no way you can be out. Sometimes, you think that there's turning back but there is none. But sometimes, when you think that it's a game over, it is not. And worse enough, sometimes you just feel like going back to that part of the game again cuz you think otherwise. Complicated, ain't it?

It's all about finding the right person at the right time. But when you meet the wrong person at the wrong time, all you can do is to pray that you will meet that particular person again at the right time.

Complicated.

Sunday's concert was a great success. Although there's hiccups here and there.

People out there to satisfy their ego and stuff.

Can't blame me for being vulgar or feeling irritated or what. All I want is to get things done and nothing else. Cooperation yea.

Really la.. You think Im not stressed up enough meh.

Thurs is my performance presentation. Gotta play solo. =(

Stress!

Next monday is REMT perf and PA test at Moberly Amphitheatre. At 8.15 morning! How early hur.

I want christmas to come. But christmas reminds me of what happened last christmas.

I want my bday to come.

Hurry hurry!

Left`alone
12/03/2007 11:16:00 PM™